i, too, smoke...have now for years...i enjoy the calming effect also and also wish i had never started...it seems the habit of 'lighting up' is more time related and activity related with me...have one in the morning with coffee, while talking on the phone, while driving my car, after meals, etc...the cravings are stronger at these key times than at any other...the desire to quit comes only when i have problems breathing, or when the smell on clothing or in my house or car is overwhelming...have tried to quit on occassion and the smell of another's smoke is offending, not luring...if you do not smoke...do not start...the habit is so hard to break...i have heard of heavy drug users saying they quit the heavy drugs easier than they could quit nicotine...seems all smokers feel like they wish they had never started