I have just come off Diazepam and Alprazolam (both taken for recreational use and for sleep after heavy stimulant using, also on a daily basis - Mephedrone on a regular scale and weekends occasional cocaine use with ketamine and stronger Benzodiazepines such as Midazolam and Bromazepam) after having three seizures after a 48 hour binge. HIGHLY stupid decision cost me a lot, luckily not my life.
Since 3 days after my seizure (around a week ago) my nights of sleep at home at my parents house in the countryside have been extremely broken, usually including me not getting any sleep until around 4-5am. When I DO FINALLY fall asleep, I will wake irrregularly and consistently throughout the night. Every time I wake up, I will still definitively be dreaming, although I will either have my eyes closed and be visualizing the dream or my eyes will be open and the room becomes part of my dream. I will usually talk throughout, and I can remember with surprising detail what I say when I have my eyes open.
When I awake and have my eyes open, I still feel as though I am inside the dream. I will talk to the people who were in my dream, and if the light is bad and I see things that look like people in the corner of my vision, these objects will turn into people very convincingly. The strangest thing is I will accept them in my peripheral vision for a surprisingly lengthy period of time before questioning those things.
When I awake and I have my eyes closed, different problems occur. One is the space and distance perception of objects in my dream and those in my room. The bed is an obvious one, and in all my dreams I am laid down in my bed. However, the distance from the floor to the ground changes in my dream and does not in real life. Therefore I 'SEE' in my dream a floor that is further away than it actually is, leading to a confusion between two parts of the brain. Logic does not enter into the process until later, it almost seems as though it is delayed while the brain tries to cope with the transition between real and dream world.
I want to know what this is called, what kind of treatment is available and how long lasting it is if it has been provoked by long and abuse level use of a prescritption strength drug like Alprazolam or Diazepam.
Thanks!
