Hmmp

Yeah... I was on Zyprexa back in 2002. They prescribed them to me when I was staying at the ward for about 2 weeks. During the time before they start feeding me Zyprexa, they fed me different pills each day. Some makes me feel relaxed, some gets my mind racing... others makes me feel so zonked out. I wasn't properly assessed and because I never took medicitations for mental illiness before that time, and because of the side effects I felt... I decided on my own to stop taking the pill after a month of out of the ward, without professional advice. 4 years later. Now and then I still get paranoid, anixous and depressed... but not as much as the early days in 2002. I do feel I need some help... but I am not interested in taking medicitations prescribed by some professional's guess work to fix my head. I want emphasis it was their guess work, because I am deaf... I barely told them anything when they questioned me in a small boxed room (there was no interpreter, we had to rely on paper and pen to communicate). They didn't tell me anything, like what I was diagonised with etc.... nothing at all, just said something like "yeah ok boy, you can go home tonight -- but u gotta take this medicine for the rest of ur life". The trust between me and any doctor is stuffed up >> I only see them when I need a medical certificate for sickies from work... lol