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IQ tests don't exactly measure intelligence, and they definitely do not measure knowledge. They measure your ability to reason. Common sense, logic, whatever. I recently got into Mensa off such a test, and have learned a lot about the whole IQ thing since attending events with other Young M's. Most of them either dropped out, or didn't do all that great in class anyway. A lot of us are horrible procrastinators, for instance - something that doesn't exactly do wonders for your grades. School grades are more about memory, retention, and work ethic than about actual intelligence.

I haven't the foggiest idea how you'd manage that, with an average person. As far as I can guess, it'd take the world's dimmest / most gullible person to believe you.

Oh, and I'd say that if you called most people at some ungodly hour (for me, I'd say 3-4 am), when they've been in deep sleep for a while already.. and whisper the info to them over the phone. I'm thinking if someone called me at that hour and whispered that they were dead, I'd probably buy it, at the moment. Of course, when I'd wake up, I'd forget it happened at all, anyway

What actually caused you to wonder about this, anyway?

I'd actually like to die of Ebola, when the time comes. The virus fascinates me, and knowing *exactly* what it feels like would be in interesting way to go. Gain the knowledge that you can't in any lab, then lose it all.

The only answer I can come up with for this is "Baby don't hurt me"

I can't believe I'm about to post this. This has been a very private aspect of my life for so long... but now I want to learn more about it. Where do I start? All of the women in my family, way down the line, have been "gifted". I hate that word, I've always seen it as a curse. For the most part, I'm talking about precognition, with sporatic cases of "hearing" a person's thoughts. I hope I don't sound like a raving lunatic. It's really hard to find information about this - all there seems to be are a lot of Jo Jo's and Miss Cleo wannabes. Hippies and "witches" and everything else. People glorify this stuff, but when you're stuck with it yourself, it can be really confusing and depressing. I guess I should start from the beginning. I’m a 25 year old female, and as I’ve mentioned, this has been passed down for generations in my family. There is no doubt in my mind that there is a genetic aspect to it. Other than this, I’m a normal woman, of slightly above average intelligence, and my bloodline is Irish. Not sure if that actually has anything to do with it, but it’s been mentioned before. As a kid, I was a loner, and just plain didn’t fit in with anyone. I knew I was different, and kids didn’t let me forget it. None of the weirdness I’d known at home (My grandmother having a vision of my mother running over my sisters’ bike, and calling 2 minutes after it happened to ask about it, etc) was ever mentioned at school. We didn’t really talk about it much, it was just kind of there. My family isn’t really religious - we were made to attend Catholic Sunday School, but I was kicked out at age 12 for asking too many questions. (Long story.) The thing that makes this very hard on me is that I am a woman of science. My first love was microbiology. I’ve always been a highly logical person, and non of this makes any sense, logically - yet I can’t argue with so many instances of fact. I’ve tried over and over again to rationalize many events, to no avail. My boyfriend of 6 years is a Christian, and has had a really hard time dealing with my unusual abilities. I try not to use them, or at least, be quiet when things come to me - but it still weirds him out. I’ve never had any control over it. I can be driving, sitting on a bus, sleeping.. whatever - and knowledge will just come to me. It’s not pictures, it’s not a voice, its just knowledge. Sometimes, it’ll happen often, other times it’ll be weeks or months between incidents - but when it happens, it always comes true. I have no way to explain these things. I was fortunate enough to have known a few others like me when I was about 15. That’s about the time that things got stronger, and I had no idea what to do about it. Meeting people like me was easy - it was almost like radar. I still have that to an extent now, but usually try to block it out. I am really bothered by some of the issues that I saw those friends go through - a lot of depression, suicidal ideations, and my friend Ben went insane. I’m not depressed, and not even close to insane, but it does worry me as a possibility. I have to agree with the person who originally brought up the depression issues, as far as the abilities NOT being an advantage. I have yet to meet a person who has precognitive abilities who can actually control them. I’m not saying they aren’t out there, I just haven’t come across any yet - Though I’d like to. I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching about this lately - it’s like living two lives: the scientist, and the freak of nature. I’ve seen the two attributes as being mutually exclusive, but now I’m not so sure. Back to the group of friends. I do realize that this would be a very small sample group to base any conclusions on, but we did make a few observations. We all were a lot stronger than we looked, or should be for those of us who didn’t work out at all. We also had ridiculously strong immune systems. As far as my Dr can tell, myself and my 6 year old son are both immune to strep infection. I had a serious strep infection (invasive strep A) when I was 16, and have not been infected with *anything* since. My son is in grade 1 , and has never had strep throat or an ear infection, and has only missed 1 day of school since the beginning of Kindergarten. I also heal incredibly fast, and in ways that shouldn’t happen. I sustained a major back injury years ago in a car accident, and my back was a slab of scar tissue afterwards. Because of insurance issues, I was not able to get therapy in time, and a year after the accident, all of the Drs and specialists I saw about it concluded that it was permanent. 2 years after that, with no therapy, the scar tissue had all disappeared completely, and my lower back was strong enough to freak out a personal trainer. I’d instructed him that I’d need to be especially careful with my back, due to injury... yet I could do more weight on the back extension machine than any of the male bodybuilders in the gym. Also, due to a childhood UV allergy, I was blind in one eye, and extremely nearsighted in the other, with a fairly bad astigmatism. A year ago, I decided to go off my glasses and force myself to adapt. 2 weeks ago, I saw the eye dr again - I’m now only slightly nearsighted in the formerly blind eye, normal vision in the other, and the astigmatism is incredibly slight now. I don’t know enough about the eyes to know exactly what he was talking about, but he was floored at comparing the results. I do not know if my immune system and healing has anything to do with the other weirdness, but it is something I’ve always wondered about. The group and I back in the day debated the evolution idea endlessly, and the immune / strength / healing would fit in with it, as far as I can tell. I feel like I’m trying to find who I am, now that I’ve decided I’ll accept this. I’ve spent years trying to ignore it, hoping it’ll go away.. But an incident yesterday with it actually really benefitted me, and now I want to harness it, if possible. It was also the first time that the bf seemed a little less weirded out by it. What a rant.. I’m sorry. I had to get it out of my system. If anyone out there is going through the same thing, or has any insight, I’d love to hear it. This whole “evolving” thing is a lonely business! LOL!