Many of historys greatest minds were horribly tormented people. I myself suffer from frequent bouts of severe depression and have also been labeled a high functioning sociopath (something I am only recently beginning to fully understand). I take solace in the fact that some of my heroes (or anti-heroes) were also affected with similar issues.
Not least of which Richard Feynman and Lord Byron.
“He knew himself a villain—but he deem’d The rest no better than the thing he seem’d; And scorn’d the best as hypocrites who hid Those deeds the bolder spirit plainly did. He knew himself detested, but he knew The hearts that loath’d him, crouch’d and dreaded too. Lone, wild, and strange, he stood alike exempt From all affection and from all contempt”
George Gordon Byron
One of history’s favorite sociopaths