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i can self-induce hallucinations, but i only learned through taking the drugs how to do it. i couldnt really explain it. you do have to know what a hallucination looks like so that youd recognise it in the first place, because its just stuff moving for the most part. you just stare off as if youre looking at one of those eye gams where you are trying to make a shape appear out of a pattern, pretty much. it helps if youre tired, dehydrated, hot, in the dark and can see things blurrier, or if you can get to the point where the "darkness" is made up of tiny little white-noise dots. You can play with those. Start with something like a patterned ceiling.

A lot of people feel awakened when they shake off something taught to them by society. For me when I first got interested in feminism it was like re-learning something I already knew that was really obvious, and I moved into understanding a lot about social politics and social science very quickly and easily, and sometimes when you find background information about how something works; be it what chemicals are in farm dairy food, or the structures of capitalism, or certain areas of physics, people often feel like they can now make real decisions about the choices that they make based upon being informed and understanding things. You can change the world, or at least not contribute towards certain things yourself and make an effort and its very good for the soul. For a lot of people though, this same thing applies to spiritualism and conspiracy theorists, and these are the people who I have found use that language the most and see themselves as the elite in touch with the earth and understanding everything, we are all one, people need to wake up the sheeple from the banksters and the politicians, we are all one, peace and love, etc etc etc. They can get lost in their own fantasy if they go in too far, and exit the matrix into a world which doesn't actually exist, and you can't get them out when they reach this mindset. Oh no, they start thinking everybody else's opinion was brainwashed into them by the television or else you're a "shill" sent by "them" to try and trick them. Especially if you're their psychiatrist. Seriously! Keep them away from the Zeitgeist films! Generally these people think they have found out about the world. Some have and some haven't, but rather than working to change it or talking to people and having rational discussions, they either preach a lot of rubbish, pat themselves on the back, and just try to help themselves and their spirituality have a mental revolution... or something... Sound like them?

I always used to be an insomniac, and as such learned to cope by just daydreaming so heavily and so vividly (Strong congnitive imagination. Have conversations in my head with someone next to me a lot etc) and I can get a lot of energy from there. Also I love sleep and get depression so even now that I'm not an insomniac I still zone straight back into sleep after waking up and turning over and may do so for about a week if left to it, and daydreaming about things that are better than my day ahead often seems more desirable. Not complimenting this especially well is my ADHD, which means both that I'm far more likely to zone out at inappropriate times as I get bored more easily, and go off tangent from things that someone said and start thinking about or having a mental conversation about that instead until I'm lost. Of course another symptom of ADHD is disfunctioning working memory. Sometimes you forget short term memory, but often your brain doesn't read your working memory and put it into your short term memory box in the first place and so there is no memory to remember. This can happen when you ARE paying attention to what someone says, and you cannot focus both on remembering what someone is saying, and also processing the meaning of it at the same time. It literally does go in one ear and out the other against your will sometimes. Now add that to when you are not paying attention or are in a trance of just "doing" stuff on auto-pilot, as we often do, and you're going to have to just memorise that your keys can usually be found behind your laptop, because you don't have a single memory of having ever put it there even though you seem to throw it in that absurd position every day. Maybe this will help some people?

I never used to lucid dream, but I would have dreams which were lucid/vivid, esp in the morning having half woken up. I watched waking life and looked up lucid dreaming and found it fascinating. I was looking up techniques such as looking in mirrors, at digital clocks, and flicking lightswitches when in that state and when in the real world to make it more likely that you would do it in a dream, as these are things which your mind has trouble making work in dreams. Also just looking at your hands in general. Since I started reading about it and thinking about it a lot, I had a few moments of realising I had a lucid dream and then "zooming" out and waking up. I also have had 2 dreams which became lucid half way through. The first was by far the most interesting, though not my first lucid dream. It was all crazy and basically I got out of a taxi and was questioning why we had to park where we parked and they said because there were no bus stops anywhere else which made me realise I had been on a double-decker bus before so I must be dreaming. Now, there are 2 things most people want to do when they go into a lucid dream: fly, and fuck, so I found the first guy I could wandering around and we did do the flying thing. it was a more interesting if less realistic flight than in my other flying dreams. We could loop-de-loop and al that, but when it came to sex he told me he was in love with someone else, so not wanting to abuse my own mind I decided to let that one slide. My other dream induced dream was after the main part of a dream had just finished which involved dogs and parties, and I was walking across the street and there was a group of guys behind me who were rude to me so I had a go at them, then they asked me if I was a dreamer or not. I pondered and said that depended on whether I was dreaming or not. I became lucid around then. And then they decided that to find out they threatened to rape me and walked towards me, and after 2 attempts I managed to wake myself up. Slapping didn't work. I had to force my eyes. I was convinced for about an hour that they were other lucid dreamers and couldn't go back to sleep. Wasn't too keen on that one! However, using the wake-back-to-bed technique I have been able to self induce a few times. I can quite often, picture my room, or what I can see with my eyes open, almost exactly with them shut. If done in the right conditions you can very easily put yourself in the same state as a waking dream. You can feel what your body is touching, and "see" where you are, but trying to move will just be your brain telling yourself to move. For some people this turns into sleep paralysis, which is the start of many a "ghost-sighting", but for others, they will THINK that they moved, and hopefully be able to dream that they got out of bed. If you are thinking about lucid dreaming in this state then there is a good chance that it will result as a lucid dream. You can use your eye movements to begin with, as lucid dreams are REM so that shouldn't mess it up. However, with self induced you tend to find that whilst the world keeps form better (in dream-induced your brain is busy trying to control both you, others and your surrounding all at once. very fast loading video game!) because its already mostly decided upon, and doesn't take much imagination, being able to change the environment is much harder. Or at least it was for me. First time, I got out of my bed, went to the door, went to open it, and put my hand straight through the handle. By this logic I decided to walk through the wooden door, but I bashed into it, so I ran my hand down my arm, till I felt the door, then across the door to the handle. It didn't last much longer than that and most don't last long at all. I did have one at some point where I was able to morph my body and grow huge and scary, but only once. It's really hard. One word of advice would be that in a dream-induced dream, one sign that might be useful to associate with being a dream that isn't in the top paragraph, is that it is really hard to exert yourself in a dream, which is why flying is often floating and flapping around, and why often if you CAN run, you are more fast-forwarding, unaware of your body. When you are vivid enough in your dream to notice your limbs, running often becomes impossible, and even walking, and you start feeling as if you are walking though thick mud in slow motion. a couple of my early dream-induced dreams that woke me up began with that. Hope that helps. There are a lot of resources online, though you might want to avoid the more "spiritual" ones.

Hiya, I joined the site because I was searching similar things. Going to start with a bit of background into how my mind works. I can't say that the audio is as clear for me as you, and usually if i think it up its more like I'm turning another noise into music, like rain or a car engine into loud classical operatic hell music or something like that. I might also occasionally snap myself awake hearing a noise or a voice when I'm just drifting off. That's annoying. I spend a lot of time doing nothing and sleep a LOT, and lounge around a lot, (partially depression, partially I like it, partially nothing to do) but I used to be a big insomniac. I recently started practising a bit of lucid dreaming, for which doing that thing where you try to see your room with your eyes closed is really helpful to self induce. its very similar to the situations where you think you've woken up and got up but you just dreamt it, even though you're half awake. its also the sort of thing which may lead to sleep paralysis. I've always had a very creative imagination; vivid as a child. I remember being 3 and waking up from a nightmare and thinking that there were these skeletons in the room. dressed, and some with long hair. They were actually talking to me and telling me to calm down and being nice, and even though they were obviously my imagination, made from dots in the dark (quantum dots?) which I was telling to behave in that way, I was scared regardless of their behaviour and ran into my parents bedroom because, like I say, I was awake. Being an insomniac later in life, I managed to get a lot of my rest whilst I'm awake, by simply zoning out in my classes to the point where my daydreaming is that strong that I don't remember I'm in class at all. Only fell 'asleep' once, when I noticed there was a calculator on the wall and bolted upright. This may have been a particularly bad coping mechanism as someone who suffers from ADHD like myself who may even when listening intently zone out or even when zoned in not be able to follow someone's words and process them at the same time so that they go straight through me without going into my memory storage as if that event never happened. This means that my memory of where I put my keys is actually less present and vivid than my daydream that I was chatting to someone about something when I walked home when I was actually alone, (I have a very cognitive brain. If I use words rather than images it will bring on further insomnia.) even when that memory is jolted or I find out where I put my keys. I don't have that memory in my conscious mind. It doesn't exist. Possibly subconsciously. (On a side note, as vivid as a lucid dreams have been a few of my dreams that reached dé ja vu status, but that's something for another thread. Lets just say I've told people what was going to happen before it happened, but usually I forget my dreams and when I remember it's generally about something really boring and inane, so it has only been a couple times where I'm sure I dreamt it first. It isn't a case of "making it happen" or coincidence because it was that vivid and exact, and it was a music teacher making us sing a song that I didn't even know etc, but you only have my word on that so yeah, scientific people shouldn't really buy that unless they've experienced it themselves. None of the explanations so far have worked for my experiences, or your brain reading the same thing twice. That only explains the feelings, but anyway, I just added that point in to say that sometimes the things in my head like dreams, daydreams, or whatever the hell that shit is, are often more real to me, or as real to me, or if I'm down, more comfortable and enjoyable to me than pulling up real things, just to give you a taste of my head.) Anyways, Last year I had my first time on acid. No need to explain the symptoms I'm sure, just to say that I didn't see anything from my imagination, but instead an interesting eye puzzle of how light refractions and shadow work, how light makes colours, how we see 3D, and physical patterns in the world a la Alan Turing (lots of other senses too etc) . I spent the next morning very 'half' tripping. I was very tired and I found whilst it didn't actually STOP moving for a long time, and I was absolutely amazed by the colours of the Summer fauna etc, if I stared at something, like a twig for a few seconds, I could will it to move more than it would be if I wasn't trying, because by this point it was largely ignorable that we were on something. I remember saying to myself that I could probably put my eyes in a way to push this if I practised enough, similarly to how i can occasionally push lucid dreaming. It wore off quite soon apart from some of the more typical effects of appreciating certain things more etc. Did it for a second time around the next month. Sound played into it a bit more, and felt semi-telepathic (Top Answer) towards the other persons on it in comparison to everyone outside my bubble. after a while on it i orgasmed a second time on it (tmi, i know but its part of it) and after that I felt myself needing to move and tap to the beat of the room movements. I tend to fidget and tap a lot anyway. It's just something I do, but I realised after a while that I found it really hard not to do so unless totally distracted. I'm a very psychosomatic placebo affected person really, so it may for all its worth have been a fit because I felt forced to spasm. It wasn't a scary experience btw. Just a bit unnerving. It wasn't erratic, and I was controlling how i moved, just not if i moved. If I forcibly stopped I found that I'd be trying to hard that my eyes would water, and focusing this hard on anything on an acid trip is hard work. As such, I went into a state of lucid dreaming with my eyes open where I was totally aware and conscious of what I could see and hear, but knew I was asleep. Very strange indeed. After that I found myself a few times, in the bright sun or whilst dehydrated zoning out into the type of hallucination that you get when you are in a desert or watch the grand prix on TV, but a lot closer and more like the dregs of an acid trip. Also, my eyesight has been getting worse, and I found that in the dark when I was camping out that things in the distance were blurrier but very similar to the 'pastel' stage of a trip (so I made sure I got glasses now) and certain things, like shadows on a stony texture for example, i could make move slightly as well, and things like that, but mostly when half awake, in the dark, or not in a good body state. So on Monday I dropped a load of MDMA at a free party. Don't remember much of the crazy part of it apart from blurry vision, airy hands, a big buzz and losing someone's hat. But in the morning, half awake, I could see what is similar to the after-effects of acid. Certain things were a little swirly, and there was a map of red dots in square formation in front of my eyes, like when you close your eyes and there's light, but it was still quite dark, and I was seeing things out the corner of my eye, and sometimes if i zoned out then the red dots would start moving around, even though they were more like pixels of the world. My eyes would start to join up the dots and make shapes. One time it was a green spider next to my head. All in squares though, not scary, more like an 8-bit computer game. The red dots didn't fade out for hours. It's 3 days later and I'm still able to stare until I see things move. I haven't done it much because it strains my eyes, and I'm suffering a few other after effects. Apart from the physical ones I was having some real buzzing sounds whirring around. But yeah, I like hallucinogens, but as someone who has trouble with memories and dreams and real and not real, I'm probably going to take it easy, esp on the MDMA, and I'd suggest that drugs will enhance your powers to see these things, but to be cautious of getting into it if the lines blur for you as to when you are or are not on a trip. Being mentally sane now isn't going to help you if in your old age you're more likely to think there's pink elephants running around the room.