So here's the question, is there an overall global shortage of scientists?
The underlying reason for the question is a bit selfish I guess. I personally highly admire the scientific community and although I have nay a degree or certification in any science related subject I like to think of myself as one anyway. The impression that I get from the scientific community however is that this is in fact not the case. I would love to be what the community considers a real scientist and this is why I have returned to school for a degree in science. But--I really hate the but--it seems that I am still incapable of acting under pressure, something I have struggled with my whole life from academics to any job I've ever had. I fully landed on my face in my last physics quiz and was unable to properly formulate through a work equation involving a spring attached to a mass connected to a rolling sphere over a pulley connected to a block sliding on an incline under a force parallel to the incline pulling the block up the hill. The theory is nothing special and I can do this sort of question . . . in my own time.
So this leaves me with the question why am I even trying to do this. Well for starters I see that many in the scientific community are not willing to go out on the ledge and strive for the little bits and pieces that could make the difference in many areas. Granted my reasons here are again selfish, if moving technology forward means that I will somehow improve my life, lifestyle, or longevity I am one to jump on that band wagon. There are obviously other ways that I can participate like in raising funds for research and appropriating donations accordingly. I could probably invest in research independently and delineate activities from above. I know how many scientists feel about this sort of talk as well but from where I am this is a possibility and something that I can work towards.
So what's the problem then? Well this goes back to the question of the post, is there an overall global shortage of scientists? One of my driving reasons for pursuing science directly is that I simply do not know any scientists and I know a hell of a lot of people--ajb doesn't count I have never actually met him. I have always felt that it is somehow my responsibility to humanity to overcome my faults and do what it is I do best, solve problems. I guess I could philosophies about the way problems could be solved from my couch but I don't regard this sort of behaviour as being productive. I'm seeing an educational psychologist to see if there is in fact a barrier between my studying and my consequential success in examination. I'm also considering changing programs from a Major in Biochemistry to a Double Minor in Math and English, I figure I could go back to game design. The problem with my fall back plan is that it makes me feel like an irresponsible human being.
I know this is a lot to read and if you are still reading it you are probably one of two or three. I'm just hoping to get some perspective on this because it means a lot to me and I value the opinions of those currently in the community. Just to put perspective on this my current average is probably around 72%. The real conflict comes in where I am a mentor to most of the students and the teachers regard me as someone as having a much higher capacity within the sciences. My teachers don't question my ability to perform valuable research, but if I can't make the grade it won't matter anyway.
Thanks for any feedback,
Xittenn