ste20man

Hi, this is my first post. I am getting more interested in quantum physics but do not have the intelligence to make any marked contribution. I am on the other hand a polymath and am experimenting with an idea that crossed my mind late one night as I dozed to sleep. I hope you can hear me out as it would be easy to dismiss me based on past histories. I will only explain completely honestly what my idea is and then throw myself to the wolves Perhaps I am bi-polar which gives at times amazing amount of creative energy or on the other side deep depressions(that has happened only once). I have been taken into mental hospital 6 times in 15 years and have always been writing equations of varying difficulties / madness' over that time. I recently had a Eureka moment(that night). It could be completely mad but every day I am seeing progress. As far as I can tell nobody knows where the "center" of anything is. Why not make this a person? I intentionally made myself bi-polar "high" and let go of all previously held beliefs. I essentially became a human placeholder zero. I stood for nothing, I judged nothing and I only gave opinion on a situation when someone was forcing their opinions on me. It gave me the time to evaluate what was important. My moral values were already set and I promised only to learn and "believe" what could be proved through mathematical logic. I judged any statement or conversation given to me through pure math logic and extracted only truths which were positive, ignoring the negative. This was essentially a 35 year old man embarrassing himself in others eyes as the conversations were strange to say the least. Still, I stuck to my guns and am still learning pure truths to this day. I have done this to have a mental mathematical model installed like DOS in my mind. I today had the first conversation that could be considered "in English" that happened to be with my dad. We saw eye to eye. We have done in the past but this is a very different kind of meeting. There are no misconceptions in my mind know. It is merely pure logic and it has made me fast in thought and comprehension. Not only this, being bi-polar is a very emotional time as your nearest and dearest are in pain(somewhat). I think I have done something that hasn't been done before and this was my aim. Both my mother, father and I have become incredibly entangled and in computing terms i am definitely the CPU and clock. They are increasingly starting to "think" like I do in terms of pure logic architecture(not soul, free will or personality). I have done this by force of will alone, by refusing all until they gave me the right "answer" I was after. I understand that this was Pavlovian but I did it in the hope that when my father or mother took back control we would be increasingly in synchronization. Once the basic logical truths were established then each person is running off the same operating system. I have been watching collapsing waves and timings that seem exaggerated or out of the norm. In this way we can go about our daily business' and come back to share in what is essentially a human bit. What do you think of this process? Do you have any further ideas that might prove we as three bits are affecting the quantum world around us. What live experiments could i try that didn't involve digital interference(TV, Internet etc). How many muons or synapses does it take to bind two people together if you can see what i mean? Thanks for your ideas, Steven.