Left hand right hand?

[jajrussel]

How can there be a large mass in the left hemisphere that has no effect on the right side of the body yet as it pushes its way over into the right hemisphere there is effect to left hand namely a noticeable slight tremor while occasionally dropping something not enough time to worry me but the other day while trying to put the leash on the he dog the hand just quit working and started feeling numb not cold just numb. I was wearing a device  on that arm that takes pulse every two minutes during the event the pulse was recorded so I’m assuming that since there was a continued pulse  and that my hand did not get cold that my brain over reacted to a painful pinched nerve in my wrist and shut the whole hand down. Unless it can be done by simply pinching a main nerve in the wrist.  Actually I would prefer that kind of possibility. 
it resulted in a trip to the ER and my discovering that there are things more scary than angina

 anyway it explains, maybe, some of the anger issues i have  been having, maybe. I kinda hope so. 
but it doesn’t explain how such a large mass can be growing in the left hemisphere without effecting the right side yet cause problems to the left side. Suspect that the only reason I can ask this question and possibly talk about this now is because when they said they wanted to transfer me immediately to another hospital that specializes in neurosurgery my irrationality due to recent medical events I said no but agreed to an appointment tomorrow to talk and then it will go from there. The problem with talking  to specialist doctors is that they have programmed speeches to imply the need for instant action so they don’t listen to the questions.

 No Doc you didn’t answer my question nor have you reassured me it’s just that I have had time to think about it and I trust that you know what you are doing even if you can not answer my questions without giving  your its  really important that we do this thing now, speech. The truth is I just wanted to talk, and i would prefer to be sitting down and not looking up at  the bright lights this time for the talk, and note this time if you are not going to put me to sleep you might want to at the minimum partially secure my arms so that this time i don’t try and show you where you are working by touching the point where whatever tool you’re  using is touching me and be warned in advance that if you don’t knock me out I will talk your ear off, it’s called  Captive socializing .

 Okay, most of this is i just nervous chatter, but it just about time for me to go on vacation again and I’m hoping that when i get back Someone who knows something about neuroscience will have answered the left hand mass not effecting the right hand question? Or at least point me in the direction of something a layman can read. 
who knows maybe when they are done I will once again be able to walk to the kitchen to get a cup of coffee and remember why I’m in the kitchen when and if I get there.

Oh well, if not. I have  gotten  used to cold coffee 

 

Edited January 8, 2020 by jajrussel

[jajrussel]

Okay actually in this case the ER doctor showed me a reverse image so the Hyperdense mass is actually in the right Hemisphere pushing over to the left, and now  it make more sense. And after the examination the  nerosurgeon did not see any reason to rush into things. He said he would prefer to allow me to recover from the original cardiac problem first At which point if not for the fact that i am an old man and hurting I would have done cartwheels I know they mean well but an old man can only take so much at Once. 

Edited January 9, 2020 by jajrussel

[zapatos]

Send pics of the cartwheels when you finally do them! 😀

[jajrussel]

Tried to find a cartwheeling emoji, but couldn't so, it Ain't gonna  happen.😞😞 Sorry. Then I'm also, assuming my common sense will come back when they are done. Then it still ain't gonna happen😊.

[jajrussel]

The mass has been removed☺️  Occasionally it feels as if my head has been removed the pain suggest otherwise not to mention that using my cell phone finding my head is not that difficult somewhat ugly but not difficult to do. 
the fact that I am using my cell phone and am not just sitting here staring at it wondering what to do next in my opinion suggests  good days to come. 
they were gonna give me another 3 months before the procedure but had to move it up. Doing well. 

[Bufofrog]

I am glad your surgery went well.  I had a family member have major brain surgery and I know how painful it is.  Best wishes on a speedy recovery.

[jajrussel]

The Drs seem pleased. I haven't noticed an improvement in short term memory using the coffee test, but then my life situation has changed. I’m in a whole different environment. Generally, I can walk to the kitchen  to get coffee successfully, but when I get into a conversation it can get cloudy, simple words right on the tip of the tongue that refuse to present. Occasionally whole sentences that I have repeated over and over because of the endless repeated questions I know what they did and why. It is like I am trying to carry a two story ladder around a house in mud sinking to my knees. I’d rather just pack the truck up and go home. For one thing mud gets on everything, secondly they then want all the mud cleaned off of everything. It is better to wait until there is no mud then do the job.

 I’m hoping it is the medications.  Keppra specifically, since it is the only really new med, it apparently comes with a lot of unpleasant side effects. Then maybe it is the brain adjusting to the void.

There was a hypersensitivity to electrically induced  stimuli, as in conversation was fine. A squeaky wheel on a food cart was fine. But, the racket coming out of my phone or tv was extremely irritating. It got better, but the other day I was given a ride to a store and all I wanted was out of the place. It was like I was trying to watch a movie right after surgery, way too much input. Which oddly didn’t occur in the store I visited first. I’m guessing it was the lighting overkill in the second, but closing my eyes didn’t really help.

 I don’t believe light sensitivity is generally associated with Keppra, but there was a few meds that I was already taking that are known to cause light sensitivity, so maybe again it is the brain adjusting to the missing meningioma due to fluorescent overkill. The place practically crackled.

 I have been told that I had been showing signs of a mental problem long before the meningioma was discovered, soon followed by okay, now it all makes sense. I have accepted to some degree, yes  paranoia was becoming a problem, along with all the issues it leads to, but I never felt that too much empathy and almost laughing myself into a seizure was a bad thing, and that seems to be gone. Well, not exactly gone. It’s like some of life is being viewed through a window. I remember what it was like but that isn’t my life anymore.

 It was not my intention for this to be a personal blog, so I will ask a question. Has anyone experience with brain surgery patients coming out of their surgery with a  heightened sense of apathy? It’s actually a hard question to ask. Maybe it isn’t apathy, maybe indifference is the better term? Even in this mental smog that I hope someday will go away, it seems a safe place to be, but I worry that someday someone not knowing my past will take exception and hit me right in the forehead. Considering my worry maybe neither term is accurate, but now I am at a loss?

[studiot]

27 minutes ago, jajrussel said:

Has anyone experience with brain surgery patients coming out of their surgery with a  heightened sense of apathy?

Sorry I can't help you with that, but I am not at all suprised to hear that it is the case.
Brain surgery is, after all, a step or two up from rocket science in difficulty and toughness.
+1

My thoughs go with you for on the rest of your post.