Flashbacks - Warning - not for the squeamish.

[coquina]

Have any of you ever had them? When a person has had a terrible experience, the vision comes into their head unprovoked.

 

My husband died peacefully in his sleep, and I sometimes "see" him, but it's not awful. My mother died less than 6 months later, she got sepsis from hip replacement surgery.

 

The flashback of her death is horrible. She died of a massive GI bleed. I was in the room alone with her when she began to vomit blood. She was even weeping tears of blood, and I could see she knew what was happening and was terrified. So was I.

 

I can't understand why my mind wants to make me keep seeing that. You'd think it would be more self-protective for me to block it out, but I'll be doing something entirely different, and thinking of something else, when all of a sudden that vision just pops up in my head. It will have been two years in February, and I don't have them as frequently, but I still have them.