I Want To Learn: I Want to Know

[Awesome wife]

I'm not an idiot. According to all the tests I'm actually suppose to be a genius. I've had IQ tests, MRI's and CAT scans, Blood taken and worked on a number of studies about intelligence. Some of these, I've led myself. Others were tests done when I was a kid, without knowing or understanding what they were or why. My first IQ I scored 120-150. My last test I was 160 (about 8 years ago).

 

Yet, I barely passed high school. I only managed to get the last credits I needed by sneaking into my boyfriends computer class. I did a 3 year course, in 3 months. Why? Modules were there, everything I needed for the class was available, and hell why not? Not like I'm suppose to be there anyways. Teacher finally noticed me after 2 weeks, asked if I was doing the work - took me to the principal's, and started giving me credits.

 

So, if I can do that, why was I failing most of my classes? One, mathematically - I had a solid reason. I knew the ratio's of what I needed on my final exam to pass with a decent mark. So if I wanted a B+ on my final report card, I'd need roughly a 50% mark for school, and roughly 60% on the final. If I really hated a class, I'd often piss off the teacher by showing up every day for class, but barely do any work. Final exam, 85% minimum. I guess it was also easier than dealing with people, if people think I'm stupid - then I'm that less noticeable. Not to mention, school is extremely boring! Teachers are rarely ever excited about what they're teaching. Those that are, often receive blank stares from the majority of students. Also, I didn't have an appreciation for learning. School was boring, therefore learning is boring. I had no passions, no dreams of what I wanted to be. School was just something to get out of as fast as I could.

 

So what the hell am I doing now?

 

I'm doing what I can to go forward. It started with watching a movie called "Mindwalk". It's about a poet, politician and a physicist talking about modern sciences, comparing it to the old ways of thinking - idea's where it could be going. This led me to 'What the Bleep Do We Know?' which made me ask questions, look up their data, debunk it for myself, and ask new questions. I started to do research on different subjects. Learning about past discoveries, how things work, and simplifying complicated idea's. About 2 months ago, I started teaching myself algebra. In a month, I'm at college level now. Calculus is next, and after that I'm not sure.

 

See, I have the ability to teach myself just about anything I want. I have the intelligence to understand and decipher information given to me, and convert them into 'every day' life.

 

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So, I have basically the entire world as my resource. I have nothing but potential. I literally can do anything I want. So what do I want?

 

Well, what do you want?

 

Or here's a question:

 

What field of infinite knowledge do you find interesting, but seems to be overshadowed by other things? What do you find absolutely amazing, but over saturated with study?

 

Think about it.

 

What drives you to do what you do?

[ajb]

What field of infinite knowledge do you find interesting, but seems to be overshadowed by other things?

 

I can certainly tell you what I find interesting and work on; super and graded geometry, generalisations of "bracket geometry" and potential applications in physics.

 

Overshadowed maybe not, but not very many people work on this.

 

 

What do you find absolutely amazing, but over saturated with study?

 

I would say string theory. I am a big fan of string theory, but it is very popular and ultra competitive. I would like to do more research closer to string theory, but I doubt I would ever be a string theorist as such.

 

What drives you to do what you do?

 

The want to understand why very abstract mathematical ideas seem essential in modern physics and in converse why physics motivates so much mathematics.

 

But that is too general to guide real research so we all specialise.

[too-open-minded]

I'm in the same boat as you.

 

i like psychology, physics, genetics, and cosmology.

[CharonY]

What do you mean with saturated by study? Too many people working on it?